absolute darkness. black as an ace of spade. non-responsive. a few descriptive phrases that best depict the current state of my iPhone4S.
It’s my fault. Hi, I’m Karmen. I’m an irresponsible phone owner. Just ask my family and friends or anyone else that has ever made an attempt to reach me. I’ve dropped it a trillion times. The floor, the commode, the barn, on the road yada -yada- yada.
The grand finale was ten days ago. It happened while we were camping at the beach with the in-laws. (which was wonderful and takes me to a happy place just thinking about it of which I will write about later because there were milestones made that bring up a lump in my throat-aannnyy-ways….)- I picked it up to check for morning activity and KER-PUT. I dropped it AGAIN. This time the screen did’t crack.. instead -total darkness. Like an abyss. I proceeded to shake it-talk to it-shake it some more and then finally-surrender it. THEN, I remembered Siri!! I pressed the button “Read my text messages” “Check missed calls” YAY FOR SIRI!!!!!!!!!! ..until her response, “I’m sorry. I’m not able to take any request at this time. Try again later.”
WHAT?!?!? (somebody research that and let me know what Siri is up to when she is too busy to take request??)
So, for the last 8 days I have limped along with a phone with a black screen that rings sometimes answer but not always and even if I was able to slide it in the right direction and miraculously able to answer- the speaker must be on the blink as well because on the other end mostly I have only been able to hear “hello? hello? HELLO?!” with me SHOUTING like some crazy lady (I say like a crazy woman because I assure you I look perfectly sane as I SHOUT WITH ALL MY MIGHT from the other side “CAN YOU HEAR ME NOW???????” ) Be near me Lord Jesus, be near.
Add insult to injury…
Siri apparently went on strike yesterday because now when I hold the button to beckon Siri-while looking at the black screen waiting for her to assist me all I hear is silence. Black silence.
I want you to be all mine. I am weaning you from other dependencies. Your security rests in Me alone-not in other people, not in circumstances.
Were the first three sentences from my devotion this morning. You think SomeONE is speaking to me?! (I DO! I DO! and guess what?? I’t’s not Siri.)
Isn’t it ridiculous how completely and utterly obsessed we have become with our devices? Maybe it’s just me. Maybe you are totally balanced and your quiet time with the Lord is magical AND your quality time with your loved ones is equally RIGHT ON and you can “SAY NO” to just one more quick glance at Facebook that turns into a half an hour in like two blinks!!
I had become WAAAYYYY to dependent, infatuated and/or obsessed with my little gadget until this forced sabbatical.
sabbatical=any extended period of leave from one’s customary work,
especially for rest, to acquire new skills or training, etc.
“Lord, what are you trying to teach me through my phone?”
Was a question I wrote in my prayer journal this morning. That may seem a bit silly to you. It’s not to me. I encourage you to implement a healthy habit. Learn to look for the activity of God in even the smallest or most mundane circumstances.
I’m thankful for grace. That in my weakness He is strong.
Mostly, I am thankful that He loves me in spite of me.
“neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
have a blessed day y’all
PS- for those of you who have attempted to communicate with me via text and/or call over the last 10 days -now you know-I am not ignoring you.